These are probably the best days out
there in anyone's life when we think that we grow up quicker and quicker and
this feeling is much stronger as we reach adolescence. That’s like higher
secondary (11, 12th Classes) classes when adenine is at its highest
level and you feel like a gust to do something in life that others have never
done. You work on this with highest level of energy. I was also highly
energetic at my school time like others and since I represent MARS (those who
know astrology, Mars is a planet that stands for spontaneous movement without
much thought) and I always wished accuracy in life. I will get up exactly at
same time every day and as the school bell will ring, I will run for home since
school was just one block away from my home. Now at this point of life I stood
for action. I will forget few homework books at home so in recess when mom will
come to school to hand over lunch tiffin, I will ask her for any books that I missed.
So in a nutshell, I will be on job at right time always but will never put mind
to see what is required there. So I was like a carefree bugger moving ahead on
whatever comes across in life and trust me it was a wonderful life. Finally the
time when I moved from Junior Wing to senior wing. I had always studied in
Hindi medium and was top rankers until now however now I had a choice to make.
Either go ahead with Hindi medium or move to English medium with higher
completion and almost a new place. My dad also wanted to study however due to
family reasons, my father sacrificed his studies and got early in job. As a
father he always wanted his kids to achieve something he wished in his life.
Since my brother was a mediocre in his studies, he always looked upon me for
his dreams. I saw his working most of the times doing regular job and then part
time jobs so that he could make up for our requirements and we never heard No
from him. If we ask him, he will just say think second time if it’s too important
so we never spent on luxuries in life but met all essential requirements. So I
went ahead with English medium section in the school. The day I entered school,
most of my friends are gone in Hindi medium section and I had new people to
meet there. New challenges to see…. Until yesterday in mathematics what was Har
and Ansh has become Numerator and denominator. When I chose to take up English
medium, I thought that it will not make much difference but I found that Hindi
and English words just do not sound anyway similar. I was always shy of girls
in life but it never mean I never notice them. I always liked girls with
politeness and down to earth kind of... in my new class also, I noticed a girl
and liked her. I will not say that it was a kind of love or something but it
was just a liking... I never cared about love at that point since I was always
on a Go... (Mars). One fine day, I found a chance to talk to her when I got
late packing after school dismissed. She was sitting alone on her desk and
writing some things. I went to my desk and packed my stuff and for a moment I
paused and thought of talking to her and by now I know her name. (Attendance in
class happens with name). I picked up my bag and started moving, I slowed down
for a while when I was approaching her but as my heart started pounding, I just
moved on quicker on my way to gate and went out. My heart was beating hard as
if I saved myself falling from a hill. I moved slowly towards school gate,
thinking if I should have talked to her or not… walking with heavy feet, I
reached the main gate and as soon as I was out in the different world, I just
zipped to home (mars.. no time to think back,, just go..). life kept going in
same way as ever,, I will go to school,, come home, have lunch with some TV and
then ensure to complete home work by 5 pm since I have to go for kite flying or
to play ground, I will then come back by 7 and go to Temple for Cleaning..
Attend the prayers and the back home by 8.30 pm since my father will be back by
9 pm and I have to be back home by then. So overall I had many circles like at
school, at playground, at temple and none of them had common people. I was good
in studies so parents never bothered about what I am doing. They knew that I am
only in 2 kms area of home so they can look over to what am I doing. Time
passed and after a week again I was in same scenario where I came back to pick
my bag and she was still working on some mathematics problems. This time I was
more determined to talk to her. I picked up my bag and asked her “ are you not
looking to go back home today?” For the first time she looked to me with her
wide open eyes. My heart missed few beats while she looked up. With a cute
smile she said, I am waiting for my bus and will finish my home work in mean
time. “Nice idea”, I immediately second her thought and then put my bag back on
desk and asked which subject she is working on. She said mathematics. Now I was
not in hurry to go home (for lunch?? I am not that hungry anymore.. hahaha). I
pulled up my note books and then started finishing my homework. I realized that
in that attempt to sit with her and share time with her, I could finish my
homework almost in half time. In next 30 mins we did our home works and that
too the time just flew by. it’s like I was walking alone in park until now and
now I am walking with her. Another guys saw us 2-3 times studying together and
in no time he joined us in homework @ class sessions.. So like this for almost
a year, I will finish most of my home work at school only. So I will say this
was my first girl in life who pushed me to for my betterment since the ultimate
output was that I was enjoying my homework better than ever.. This was my new
friend circle in new class. What a wonderful start. I will try to favor her in
sports, studies, in unit tests however as time passed I realized that I
realized it was not love and its just that I liked her among others. I was now
more concentrating as studies were getting harder, helping with home chores
like glossaries, some marketing since now I can drive bike in 9th
class so go near by places for errands etc.. also I was growing tall and she
was still of same height so we kept moving apart in height wise line while
going for assemblies, sitting in class (when taller ones sit in back) etc. so
at no point, I was too serious about that girl however she was the first girl
whom I liked and who got me in habit of finishing home work in class and gave
me motivation towards mathematics which was my weak area
Finally, we wrote our 10th
Board exams. I was pretty happy with all except mathematics in which I was
really good. Reason??? Until last year there use to 30 questions in board exam
and when I gave my 10th Mathematics exam, I just did until question
30 and never bothered to turn the last page of question paper to check as there
were 33 questions (3 on the last page worth 6 marks each which I did not even
bothered to look at) so my score in mathematics will not be out of 100. It will
be 82. I just wanted to forget about it so I went to my Maternal Grandparent
place and just forgot until I heard about results coming in a week time.
Everyone at home had high expectation and I was really tense since I only know
what I goofed up with mathematics, which is called a Scoring subject in India.
Finally with God’s Grace, I scored good marks 80% in total and now was looking
for a new start. So this was end of my chapter in secondary school and all
friends there moved on and most of them I never met again. So that was the end
of my second innings at school life and now the real struggle was to find a new
school for my senior secondary education.
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